Edison, Just be Rantin and Shit

Today was just,

Tiring

I am so fustrated, the fact that school is overwhelming me and all.

Honestly Campbell is posing me more of a challenge than ever.

My high school career is just, depening on these obstacles that I CHOSE.

When I was in kapolei, I didn’t give a shit about school and how my life would end up, but when I am in Campbell I am like racing for everyone’s acceptance mentally and academically.

On top of that I wanna prove everyone who I am; see the person that I am frontin in front of everyone l
The stereotype of the ‘Loud, big guy trying to make everyone laugh to put aside other difference that pose a threat to him and his self esteem.’

See people been telling me my whole life, I wouldn’t be getting anywhere the fact that

1) I am stupid
2) I am obese
And
3) Lazy as fuck

And my fault for making it up and masking everything, for like these some odd years trying to stray the fact that I am just another percentage of America’s obesity chart.
I always thought if I was with all the “Cool kids” and like all these rich ass kids and all, I’d be all good and like carry me on in life, but I never thought in life that no one’s perfect.

I get so frustrated seeing all these academically gifted kids that get it on the first try and I got to fucken strive two times as hard to get what they got in a few minutes.

It’s been like that my whole life and I always asked god why, the fuck I am I like that.

And to make things worse I like pushed everyone aside of my life maybe for good.
I pushed my best friend aside and like, I don’t even know what to say anymore. I don’t know why I did it but it was the conclusion that I decided was the “right choice” at the time.
I just know right now I’m a Hippo-Crate, tellin myself I wouldn’t use them as a supplier, but in the end my lust for material objects just got in the damn ass way.

Losing touch with everyone that was dear to me,

I gave up on everything that I wanted to strive so much for.

I don’t know what to do




-Never forget what was so important in the beginning because in the end that’s what counts the most.
=Yadig,