I Just wanna let all of you know,

even though I left, and I am not there anymore that 

I am proud of every single one of you.

I Know me being there may or may not have affected you but I am just glad you are all growing up 

to be the light in the world.

Its been an issue for me for the longest time, and the fact is I grew out of things.

I told this to Geces,

"I was a plant, that was planted in a small in  a small pot.

that pot was then too small so i had to be transfered.

because I Grew"

This is my life and even though I am not in that ministry, I still keep all of you close to my heart.

I said I don't belong there and honestly I don't.

I am saying this because its up to the new teens to take charge of things. 

I've been at that church my whole life so my new deal is to spread out and seek God.

Honestly, don't think of it as me leaving I will always call you guys Ohana and will always be open, but as for now I don't think thats my place to be.

Keep the faith alive

-Edison Jude

Heard your story plot got lots of textures,

So i've heard

"Don't think of it as waiting, don't think of it as moving on, just think of it as being there"

-Home Skillet

"This was A Thesis"

Def Jam fo yer ears.

self express

Ordinary People,

History is repeating itself again.

Me being my stupid self and doing stupid things.

this relationship meant a lot to me and it always will.

you've been there through everything and i thank you everyday for being in my life and introducing me to so much different things.

i know i didn't get your side of the story yet,but i don't want to leave on bad terms.

i really do love you and honestly i know i had it super good and that i will never find a girl like you.

You honestly brightened up my day every moment i was either looking at you, talking to you on the phone and all that stuff.

i only wish  we really worked things out because i wanna know your side.

i told you that i didn't want to treat you like your other previous but i just did,yesterday was hell and i felt like i belonged there for doing this. I told you that i also wanted god as the center of our relationship and i still do. As much as i know it too late i really want to relate to you on a spiritual level.

I really want to treat you right because you deserve it out of all the people i met in my life you deserve much more, and if you did give me the chance i would like to show it each and everyday.

i am sorry for everything and i just hope after all this is done and if it doesn't work out that we can be friends like how it was before.

I will always love you and you have a piece of my heart that i cant take back.

just be safe and god bless.

Day 4 of 1 year

so this past week,has been ok



but wensday started everything.



I passed my road test and you know whats so funny?



is that it was the same day that i got my dash board and floor mats for the car.that i waited for 3 months.



But funny thing was that,that was the exact day 4 years ago me and her came together.



Yea,I was like what?was god sending me a sign?was that day meant for me to be happy?

yea i know she was kinda like my first girlfriend but our relationship was pretty shitty and didnt macth at all?



Right when I passed,I was thinking of her and how this whole mystery is.praying and asking god why did this happen?what is the meaning of it?was i suppose to forgive her for what happened between us and just drop it?Honestly,the next day i did.And i felt so good about it.Even though i cried my heart out for her 3 years ago and all,damn how our events help us realize shizz and all.


Love,is a gift given so never take advantage of it.

10/29/05

-Yadig,

Stop,fightin over that French Fry.

Saturday Oct 25,08

Haha,yo today has been one of the most fuckin Funest Days of my life.





Life in Rewind:

Morning :

Credit Club,and never knew that i could type out a report so fast. =]

Went to Ewa beach's Sunset on the Plains haha,saw some of the color guard peeps and just chilled for a good 40 mins.

haha





Afternoon:

Went genki for Lunch,haha My bill came out to $11.94,

but yea it was chill to hangout with some of the retreat people and all.



Yo,when nate picked me up.

This is where the party began.



So cruzin with nate bought back so much memories from freshmen year and all.



So went to pearlz and all and just was like,WHOA!



haha gay shit

so caught up with Home cooked and al shizz.haha

wacthed Saw 5,and that shit was like damn,My girlfriend was Killed i was like fuck.

Megan Good i love you girl.

hahaha.

Then we cruzed a bit in like frickin pearlz saw Destiny,Mary,Nicole.

i saw everyone i was like whoa.haha after that headed down to waipahu,and sticked around the shopping center for like a good hour,fuckin playing boxing ish.acting gay,cypher,a whole bunch of shit.beucase don't touch my NATZ!

NO HOMO.

haha.

headed to the hauted plantation and this shit was just the mutha fuckin funniest shit of the day.So the line was so fuckin long and shit and we were just pasing time by,because Dolphin's, serpths and shit.haha so we were bored and the people from the plantaion started to come out and scare people in the line.so me and nat and everyone else was like hiding and shit and fucki the most funniest shit happened nate and sheller came up to the dude with the chain saw and was like party boy action all up in his face.haha

i swear waiting in line was more funner than actually going into it.

damn,"what would you do?"

LMAO

so after we had a bite to eat at Micky D's in 94block.

so,it was all g and all,then the guys were like makin the most funniest shit ever like talking about how i should save the people working beucase i saw one of my friends from school there and it was like,they thought i was mackin.

haha

Maybe i should get my cape! because they thought they were fightin over a fry and shit.haha

so stupid,but damn funniest shit ever.

you know how we roll,haha we are most def gonna do this again.

Thanks to Nate,Scheller,Daryl,Jace,and all them other peeps that were there tonight.

=]

This,took my mind so much off her & this changed my mind on if i actually want her anymore.

-Yadig,

Slideshow, IntellectualBrown

Honestly,today has been one of the most bullshitty-est days out of the week coming off the retreat.

Honestly,"So you Think You Can Love?" Has been one of the best retreats,reason i say that is beucase i took more outta that retreat then any other retreat from lifeteen.But it seems so different from any coming off of it and going to school.

I guess,beucase when i was Kapolei no one did go to church that much,and i didnt really care what i took off the retreat.

But,Now.

Now its a totally different story.

I just can't explain how today was that bad.

I went to wacth High School Musical 3,and i couldn't fricken concentrate on the damn moive.
I was to busy frickin like side tracked.

Yo,i am trying my best.

MY BEST.

To keep the retreat alive,but this is just BLAH!

I care so much,but What should I Do?